A fine bit of knowledge. I mean, I have things pretty good now but I’m single and I do sometimes want to scratch that itch but I wonder how much a potential mate would try to pull me from enjoying the things I love…I’d have to find a gal who is into many of the things I am which is pretty rare and likely why I’m still single. It’s a selfish way to live but at the same time, if things are pretty good now, why would I want to change them. And yeah, the need to “get off” is quite powerful…it amazes me how many dude are so obsessed with booty and spend SO much time chasing it…I mean the payoff can NOT be worth all the work they put into it. But I suppose it’s a nice hobby.
As for family, sometimes it helps to treat them like strangers. I always notice that I go out of my way to be super polite to waitresses and service people and other folks…but then I don’t exchange the same courtesy to my family. I always try to remember that. Though, easier said than done.


I haven’t been able to stay asleep for more than a couple of solid hours for several months now and even if I get 6 total hours of sleep, it feels like I haven’t slept at all. I decided on Friday that I was going to go big and hit Star Lake and Blossom. I got someone to work for me on Monday, ok’ed it with Holt, and had high hopes for leaving at 8 am for PA on Saturday. Alas Friday night yielded 4 splotched together hours of sleep and when my alarm went off at 7:30, I knew there was no way I could make the 8.5 hour drive without falling asleep within an hour or two. I was so exhausted all day long so I know I made the safest decision…albeit the most upsetting one because I REALLY wanted to undertake one last impromptu solo Phish mission before becoming a mom again. I’d felt relatively rested most mornings last week, so I thought things might work out. Of course when I needed to get enough rest, shit goes way wrong. I knew it was a possiblilty and even told Willbreathes that my final decision would be contingent on how I slept. Looks like I missed out on quite a time