last friday, may 18, my grandma passed away.she had been batteling cancer for the past year. she is one of the strongest, faithful, loving, funny, and respectful people i have ever known. myself and my mom have spoken once in the last 2 1/2 years. grandma only wanted the family to be back as a unit. it still hasn’t happened yet. nor do i know if it will ever happen. i was only notified that she had passed. my mom, aunt, and grandfather were all present when she took her peaceful last breath before going into the lord’s hands. but i was uninformed to this so my last goodbye was 2 months ago. when i called her and the conversation went like this. hi grandma, how are you? she said ya know jeffrey, i am so disappointed… she started to cry and said she had to go. no i love you’s, no goodbye, just tears of saddness. i really regreat this. the chance to say goodbye came and went. the chance to tell her i love her is gone. so is the chance to say thank you for all she had done for me and my sisters. but not being told the days were winding down so i could say goodbye is almost unforgiveable. i am not free of blame for the lack of communication but, i still could have been informed. this is grandma #2 that has passed and i had no chance of wraping my arms around them to say goodbye. (grandma #1 passed last year of alzheimer’s)i know she will always be with me and i know she knows i love her but, it’s just a sad shame that small little trivial things that can get in the way of family, could result in never being able to say i love you to someone. take care of your families and eachother.
god bless her, marion greiner 1926-2007. i love you.