Happy Sunday, folks! Week was pretty uneventful as was the weekend. Work, work, work. Next week looks to be the same so hooray ::rolls eyes::
It’s getting down to the wire for me. I’ve been hoping and planning on a move up to Western NC/ Eastern TN for the last few months, but sadly that looks less and less likely. I’ve applied for more than 20 jobs in the last few weeks and only heard back from ONE…and that was part-time making like 10/hr doing clerical shit which I’m just not willing to do with 2 degrees…not that making $10/hr would cover my bills anyway and certainly not working part-time.
So needless to say, I’m stressing the fuck out. Got a lease until July 31, but if I don’t have a job to move to, I guess I crash with my parents for a few weeks which certainly isn’t something to look foward to. I’m 28 and WAAAAAY to independent to enjoy something like that.
Dunno what the hell to do now. Theoretically continuing to apply for jobs in the area I want to be seems like the best option, but not sure how practical that is. The thought of being here another year makes me wanna cry, but the chances of finding something in this town to rent month to month are slim to none. Everything is a 12 month lease except for a few apartment complexes and those complexes are geared towards teh students and not really a place for my daughter and I.
I swear this town is a fucking black hole that sucks you in and never lets you go. All my life I’ve wanted to leave, but never had the means to do so. Now I’m in a position where I can at least get a few states away and I can’t even make that happen. It’s so damn frustrating. Yeah I can stay here. I have my family, a decent job, the few friends I haven’t blown off, and the chance to do a weekly radio show if I decide to stick around, but that seems of no consolation. I’m tired of living in a relatively small place with a major university. Makes me feel so damn old lol. Not that I’m looking, but the dating pool is non-existent for me here. I’ll end up a spinster with 30 cats. Plus my daughter’s father’s family is a HUGE factor in my urgency to leave. They will never just let me be. So tired of being worried they’re camped out in my bushes everytime I go out for a cigarette or if somebody’s following me with a camera the few times I try to go out and have a good time. ARRRRHHHHHHH!
So frustrating to be me right now. Going to keep my fingers crossed that I’ll hear something in the next month or so and that things will work out like I hoped they would. Neither my parents nor I want to cohabitate for more than a month, so if I don’t have something by the time Makenzie starts school next month, I’m going to have to find a place here. So. Not. Cool.
