I’m pretty sad right now. So sad I can’t sleep. I happened to be up late with a fussy Piper when I saw a Facebook post from a friend stating he missed a mutual friend of ours, Dixon. I was devastated to find out he died in 2010. I had no idea 
Dixon was the guy who called you from some random number every 6 or 8 months because the last “new number” he gave you had been disconnected since a month after he gave it to you lol. I got a new number when I moved to Asheville in 2008 so we lost touch, but I never forgot him… It’s funny. I’ve actually been thinking about him the past few months and even tried looking him up on Facebook a few times hoping to reconnect with him. This just breaks my heart!
I met Dixon on the very day I saw my first Phish show. He was best friends with Matt, a guy who went with us…the same guy who said he missed him tonight. We went to Matt’s house to pick him up to leave for Tennessee but the bastard wasn’t home because he was at Dixon’s house getting stoned lol. So we went to this run down looking trailer and out comes this tall, skinny blonde kid with long, stringy hair and tons of acne. I would be lying if i said he didn’t scare me a little ha. It only took a few minutes of talking to him to figure out he was absolutely the kindest person you could imagine. Big, sweet, shy smile, very kind eyes, warm hugger. Just a fantastic human.
About 4 years later, he was living in Auburn working at the bar we frequented so we started hanging out a lot. We spent that whole summer together. We would come home from the bar completely wasted, hold hands, and run through the sprinklers outside my apartment then dance in the moonlight. He was pretty broke and often his water and electricity was turned off so he would crash with me for several days at a time. I would feed him and buy him cigarettes. He was kinda pitiful but akways grateful and never lost his smile.
He loved Phish and music. He was my partner in crime for the inaugural Bonnaroo. I will nevet forget eating a mushrooms and dancing the night away to Karl Denson because we were too fucked up to know Keller Williams Incident was playing next stage over. Soon after, he moved back to Birmingham for some better work and I was pretty sad when he left. True to his word, he kept in touch and about a year later came to visit with a couple if his buddies. When he wwalked up onto my porch where I was having a cigarette, I talked to him for a good 3 minutes before I realized it was him! I truly thought he was one of the buddies who came with him. I didn’t recognize him. He’d cut his hair, acne was gone, he was wearing a button up shirt instead of a raggedy t-shirt, his jeans and shoes were clean, and he had on a nice watch. I was stunned. He was freaking HOT lol. We went out and had such a great time. I took my video camera and recorded some of our tomfoolery…hopefully I stilll have that footage. That night was to this day the last time I puffed, and he was the one who passed it to me. That was the last time I saw him, but we kept in touch until I moved here and changed my number because, of course, the last number I had for him was no good. I am so sad knowing I will never get another random call from my Dixon 